Reverence

I think I have finally found someone close to love. My life is slowly hitting a turning point, but I don’t know if this is headed to the gate of heavens. Sometimes it feels like everything is falling into place, and other times I feel out of place. I am not sure where I stand in his life but perhaps I am not sure where I stand on my own. I want to be able to stand on my own two feet even if I have someone to fallback on. Maybe I am still hurt by my past, maybe I’m still traumatised after giving my all. My all that I have now is left for myself and I don’t want to spend it on anyone other than me. I don’t want to lift someone up while neglecting my own needs. At the same time, I don’t want to ignore this love that may not pass again. I want to appreciate it to the fullest without giving myself up. I want to be loved for who I am instead of having to change the essence of me.

Depression

I wasn’t lonely but I was alone.

I was at the peak of my depression when I thought I was doing well. Possibly the most common mistake any mentally ill person would make. You couldn’t tell if you’ve truly recovered from the episodes of depressionin the moment of happiness. Of course, when you’re in the moment you feel perfectly fine but just as you let your guard down and somehow put yourself in a…

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